Frustrated coz the Internet's moving soooooooooo slowly today! Can't reply all the PMs I received. Still have the last few articles to finish up before I fly off tomorrow. Feeling introspective today. Thinking about Mom and Dad, about all this...
Blinking blog is acting up again. When I go to enter new stuff or edit, the previous entry is there, but it doesn稚 seem to be publishing it on the actual blog... arrgh! Told bro (20 years old and available...
I知 tickled pink. Janelle read this blog and said that I have an interesting mind. The fact of the matter is, minds aren稚 terribly attractive, coz you can稚 SEE 弾m. What everyone sees is the body!!! At work, I致e been...
Almost all the department store chains are having sales. Went to Isetan and heroically restrained myself from buying any more shoes, although I did try a few pairs. The last time I counted, I had like 37 pairs, so I...
I really hate introductions. Not those, Hi, Im Sunflower, and you are...? kind of introductions. I mean introductions that are the beginning of stories. I have all these wonderful notes in front of me, all the information swimming around in...
I hate confrontations. I would rather ignore the phone, run in the opposite direction, and go into hiding than have to confront someone. Probably would make a good ostrich, except that I dont have the long neck. Oh, nor the...
I dont usually do these quiz things (mainly because everybody else is doing them, and it gets tiring seeing the same thing on every other blog I visit Ive never liked to follow the crowd too much :P). But...
I seem to have created a controversy of sorts without meaning to. Many thanks to James Cordey of Threshing Floor, who said of me, "She continues to process the whole thing and try to hear God in it all and...
I think this is probably a good passage of Scripture to remember right now: "One thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which...
Just the other night, I was talking to Bob about not being perfect. Actually, I was having an attack of the blahs and he was trying valiantly to get me out of it. I, however, was not cooperating. I can...
I enjoy personality tests and take a lot of them. I'll have a page just for them on my new website (which I haven't worked on for at least 2 weeks now eek!). But here's the latest. Thanks to...
Mark Morris once called me brave. I'm not, really. The thing with blogging or any sort of communication is that I can choose how much information I want to give out about myself. I can present you with...
Gary Peterson has been clearing his desk as he prepares to move to a new job. He says, "I had so much old crap that even I was astounded, and I know without a doubt that I save too much...
Something in Sainteros's latest offering struck me today. In a list of resolutions, two stood out:Express my creativity without concern for conventionDo something visual and something musicalI致e been going a bit mad lately. I passed a sort of bazaar the...
This morning, 5am She wrote down words of encouragement in a little card, then sealed the envelope. She knew from experience what a difference a few words could make. With secret glee she planned, anticiplating the joy those words might...
From the friend who reads my blog regularly, in response to my post yesterday: The Father looked down on His forlorn child. He saw what she was going through and understood. He knew the darkest nights belong to the loneliest...
I have never liked moving. I say it's a hassle and a bother, but the real reason is much deeper than that. I have A LOT of stuff. People always think I'm exaggerating till they actually see it with their...
Two weeks ago I attended the opening of a new Starbucks cafe. Here's me learning how to make my own coffee... Update: Since the picture REFUSES to load even though I've tried three different webhosts (including Yahoo photos!), I've changed...
You know what? I read other people's blogs and everybody is talking about the LOTR Two Towers movie. I haven't seen it. I didn't see the first one, either. *gasp* *faints* LOL Dunno... it's just not very important to me....
Today my paper's youth section ran a letter from a girl who's suffering from clinical depression. It hurt me to read her story. Clinical depression. Through the years, I've wondered off and on whether I could possibly be suffering from...
A thing of beauty is a joy forever. – John Keats Things of beauty have a value all their own. They might not have a great deal of practical or monetary value, but they are precious nonetheless. They fascinate me....
Beautiful people don't communicate with written word. They communicate with another language. They stare. They play games. They turn each other on with pheromones and slobber. They break up their friendships by giving each other the cold shoulder. But.. words?...
My cupboard didn't arrive!!! They said they'd deliver it at noon and I waited and waited. Nothing. At 5:30pm I called the furniture shop and the lady was horrified. "What, you mean you haven't gotten your cupboard yet?!" Nope... She...
free enneagram test I have to say that the picture is SO me, as anybody who knows me well enough will agree! Basic Fear: Being useless, helpless, or incapable Basic Desire: To be capable and competentThe perceptive, cerebral type. Fives...
Nathan recently asked me how I got to be interested in practising law. The truth is, I never was - which probably accounts for the fact that I'm not practising it now! Whenever I tell people I have a law...
Most of you would have noticed that I haven't blogged on the (impending) war at all. The only thing I've written so far was on Malaysia's stand on it, and that was on Feb 26. Rachel's words express my feelings...
Do you ever have times when you don't know why you're doing what you're doing? I do. The other day, I caught myself doing what I now think of as my "blur act" once again. It happens every time someone...
Rick's post reminded me that today is April Fool's. Ugh. You'd think I'd have realised this a lot sooner, but I recently admitted to myself that I simply can't handle being teased. I don't like being laughed at. Of course,...
In The Miracle of Agape Love Joseph F Manning writes,If agape love could be defined... I believe it would be like this: I love you (I really experience a giving, selfless love) because God has placed within me His wonderful...
I'm going to link this in my sidebar as an "About Me" section for the benefit of new people dropping by who might be wondering, "Who is this Wilful Sunflower??!?!". My previous "About Me" page was on my personal website,...
Which book of the Bible are you? brought to you by Quizilla (Via I Wanna Be Meeker)...
Some of the Malaysian bloggers are planning to go clubbing tonight. Ahh... that is SO not my thing. :) I've been conspicuously silent as emails have shot back and forth, suggesting possible venues. It's not that I have any objections...
Yippee! Hani thinks my hair is pretty! (Not quite the same as if Ash had thought so, but we all know men can be so blur... hehehee) My hair has a mind of its own. It's wavy, it goes all...
I turn 25 next month. It feels significant. And not because of the quarter-century thing, either. After all, there's all that hype surrounding "Sweet Sixteen", not to mention turning 21 and supposedly entering adulthood & freedom (yee-ha!), symbolised by wearing...
Last week marked Convocation Day (Graduation Day) at one of the local universities. Two of my housemates rigged themselves up in flowing robe, sash and mortarboard, and went up on stage to receive their scrolls. I wasn't able to be...
When two of my housemates were invited to a wedding (the same wedding) recently, both turned to me: I became Shoe And Accessory Supplier. Each borrowed a pair of (black) high-heeled shoes from me. In addition, one borrowed a pair...
Snippet from an ICQ conversation: Friend : ...and you are a contemplative person. Me : Too contemplative, don't you think? Friend : No. I am too contemplative. You are verbose. Me : ROTFL! ** Note: My ICQ no. is 169187068...
I'm getting counselling. One of my housemates is taking a degree in counselling, and part of her course requirements calls for her to hold actual counselling sessions with "clients" and record those sessions. She was hunting for victims "counsellees" (if...
I didn't really reflect on my life upon turning 25. But I do remember one night, I was crying into my pillow and I decided I was fed-up of being afraid all the time. There are two things that I'm...
I've been spending lots of time with my housemates lately, which is why things have been kinda quiet here. As Dean is fond of saying, "Real life trumps blogging!" Relationships are important to me. In high school, I didn't relate...
A few days ago, Dad sent me an SMS on my latest article: Read your piece on Gurney School. Quite a good article, but not terribly exciting. Sigh. Growing up with Dad taught me that words have great power. Remember...
There's this "5 questions" thing going around the BlogWorld. (I refuse to say the word "blogosphere"... oops, just said it!) Bryan has devised five questions just for me. Bryan, did you have to ask such HARD questions?!! ...And yes, that...
My inner child is ten years old! The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost in a good book, or giggling with my best friend, I live in a world...
I am really, really, really tired and I probably shouldn't be posting this because I hate these kind of posts, but I wanted to write it out, assuming there's anything to come out in the first place. Most days I...
23 comments, 10 emails, one e-card and one phone call I'm amazed at you guys :) Frankly I wasn't looking forward to Saturday because I'd managed to line up no less than four appointments throughout the day and the...
I need my head examined. I just ordered three craft books through Amazon. I won't even tell you how much they cost after conversion from US dollars into Malaysian dollars (or ringgit, as we call it here). Now I have...
Paging through a card-making book last night, I realised something: I like straight lines. Let me explain. I'm not obsessive enough to get out a set square and make sure all four corners of my cards equal 90 degree angles,...
Hmmm. Paul has a question about my Christian experience. Snoflek and I were discussing this very question a few weeks ago. Both of us grew up in Christian families, started going to church services even before we were born, later...
Do you ever feel like you shoot yourself in the foot? I really hate asking for help. Hate it, and generally try to avoid it like the plague. Even when I do ask, I backtrack almost immediately and give the...
"Do you want to watch The Passion? The Damansara Utama Methodist Church is holding a screening — I could get you a ticket," Emmy said. Do I want to watch The Passion? I'm not sure. All the hype has me...
Dad looked and me and said, "You have a lot of weight to lose." Mom said I have a triple chin. I know, my family are sooooo supportive, aren't they? The last time, Dad said my face is now bigger...
I was walking in a shopping mall when a stall's array of jewellery boxes caught my eye. Unable to stop myself, I paused to look, to touch, to dream. I've always wanted a musical jewellery box, or one of those...
After all the serious stuff this week, it's time for something lighter. I've been working on a "100 things about me" list for more than a year now. Surprising how difficult it is to think of 100 things! Am I...
Technically, 'Sunflower' is not my real name. It is a name I chose myself when I was 15, and is not on any of my official identification documents. How's that for a bombshell?! And here you guys thought you knew...
I was going to publish this as a comment at Onionboy's latest post but it got so long, I am putting it here. Dear O, I was touched when I read your words. When I was very young my first...
This is my favourite pic from the 4 rolls of film I took in Bali. I call it "Puss-in-Boots gone wrong": The idea was to do a "Puss-in-Boots" (think Shrek 2), but somehow I turned out looking more menacing than...
That, ladies and gentlemen, is my Chinese given name (Mandarin pronunciation or pinyin: shi4 ping2). Of course, it just looks like a bunch of strokes to those who can't read Chinese. I know this coz I only recognise about,...
My colleagues find it fascinating that I don't know any of the New Kids on the Block (NKOTB) songs and was never a fan. I couldn't even tell you how many members were in the group. Four? Five? Six??? "They...
I've just been writing about cosmetic products for work (something which, by the way, I hate to do), so you might say this post was 'inspired'. Hahah. And if I have to use the words 'luminous', 'radiant' or 'glowing' just...
Somebody recently asked what I'd dreamt of doing after graduating from university. Some people dream of making their first million by the age of 30 or building their own corporate empire... well, my only dream was to find a job...
I just got back from a two-day business trip to Singapore. It was a rather sudden thing and explains the silence here. My writing's been rather sporadic lately, I know, but I'm applying for a broadband connection at home so...
I don't really like to think of "what ifs" because I feel that's a futile exercise. Like, what's done is done and nasi sudah menjadi bubur, y'know? (A Malay saying -- literally translated: "the rice has turned into porridge" --...
That is so me. I walked into a Christian bookshop last week not knowing they were having a sale, and came out $460 poorer. Of course, I could console myself by saying that I bought Bible commentaries -- always...
Just so you know, there's a real post below this one :P Anyway, for those who've wanted pictures of my new hairstyle... okay, it's not so new now, but still -- these pics come courtesy of Portugese blogger David Costa,...
Yesterday the first thing I did when I woke up was to log onto the Internet and start searching for ice-breaker games. Coz I had cell group meeting that evening and I was in charge of coming up with an...
I've done a lot of variations of the Myers-Briggs personality test, but never found a definition that I thought was "me"-- until now. I found this funny especially because it hit the nail on the head when it comes to...
I fell asleep in my office on Wednesday afternoon -- all my late nights are catching up with me -- and a trigger-happy colleague snapped some pictures as evidence. However, instead of sebarkan (spreading it) all over the Internet...
Most people remember faces, or if not then at least they remember names. Me? I sometimes remember faces... and sometimes remember nothing. I swear, it can make for some extremely embarrassing moments. Like when fellow Malaysian blogger Silencer responded to...
For much of my life I've lived with the knowledge of my neediness & insecurities and tried not to let them consume me. There've been times in the past when I've felt myself get just a bit too clingy to...
All the stuff people said about meeting me at the Project Petaling Street anniversary bash (mostly wonderful, I think I'm starting to get used to it):Sunflower was there...This is the second time I'm meeting up with her. Our blogs are...
Murphy's Law is still operating at full strength where I'm concerned. My mattress is not arriving today after all. Waaah The King Koil lady said something about there being a problem with the lorry drivers :( * * * * * I said once...
Fellow blogger Grace tagged me some time ago to go make a "10 things" list thingy. Ever since then, every time she sees me on Yahoo Messenger, she's been telling me, "You still owe me a post!" Today she said,...
Today was just one of those days when everything was blah. I sat in front of my computer screen and felt blah. I didn't even want to write emails or post to my blog, or read other blogs. Then I...
A friend commented last night that some people tend to be pretty self-absorbed. Proving her right -- or so I thought -- I promptly asked, "Am I self-absorbed?" "No, I think you want to know people as much as you...
Bob tagged me with this meme some time ago, coz, according to him, "she can be a sucker for stuff like this". WOI!!! WHO YOU CALLING A SUCKER AH?!?!?! 7 Things I Plan To Do Before I DieGET MARRIED. (Okay...
Quick one, coz it's 3:20am and I'm pretty much brain-dead (am gonna set the post to display Monday, coz as far as I'm concerned it's still Monday since I haven't gone to sleep yet :P): 5 Things You Probably Don't...
When my family moved back to Ayer Tawar after my grandpa died, we "inherited" a dog called Brownie. I don't think she had any pedigree. For some reason, I never went near her at all. She ate cooked rice, that...
I don't have terribly many childhood memories of food -- or not that I remember, anyway. As a child I didn't like to eat much and would frequently announce that I was full half-way during dinner. I also took so...
I can't remember whether I've ever written about this before, but I have a terrible memory when it comes to people. For some reason, people ALWAYS seem to remember me, and I, err, well... quite often don't remember them. *blushes*...
I learnt something about myself yesterday. If I call a friend up coz I need to talk to someone, or need to rant, I always start the conversation by asking how they are. I need to feel that I'm not...
I've been having too many meetings. Two yesterday, was in a seminar the whole day today, another meeting tomorrow, and another on Monday. I feel like wilting! Not only that, I feel brain dead. Even though there are gazillions of...
I can't stand it when my friends put themselves down. Yes, not everybody is good in everything, and sometimes I too feel I won't be able to do this or figure that out, but stop saying you're hopeless, coz...
I don't feel like writing anything today. Been wrestling with several issues lately and feeling blue. So, lucky for me, I have some questions to answer... I got my first "real job" at 19. I was in university, had a...
Today I found out I'm an alto and not a soprano. After responding to an urgent SOS, I had an audition with the director of The Canticle Singers' latest production. Seriously, I always thought I was a soprano coz my...
6:20am and I am eating chocolate. Comfort food. And yes, I should be sleeping. But I decided to work, so I should be working. Ever heard of 'procrastination'? I did get one piece of work done, so at least my...
Recently, one of the Christian US bloggers passed away. His blog wasn't one I used to frequent. I read about his death on another blog, then went to this guy's blog, and it was still there, looking as if he...
Had a sudden need to listen to classical music tonight. Weird. Despite having spent eight years of my youth taking piano lessons, I rarely listen to classical music. But for some reason, tonight it just seemed... right. No, necessary. And...
I am soooooooooo zonked. Really knackered. Feel like I could sleep for a week. So, I'm going to sleep. Err, right after I finish this post. Yes, my name is Sunflower and I am a Blog Addict. But back to...
UPDATE: I suspected I've been losing readers and now I'm sure of it. Only five responses?!? For the past month I've sort of felt "chained" to the computer coz work has been so insane, and now I'm trying to get...
Written March 15 but saved till the movie's run ended so there'd be no wories about spoilers :) A friend had free tickets to a screening of The New World, so we went last night. I was on tenterhooks for...
I tend to not handle pressure or stress very well. When too many things start crowding in and life starts getting a bit overwhelming, I start going into escapism mode. This means eating, shopping (retail therapy! Yeah!!!), and... reading romance...
Chen May, Blink's fiancée, was talking with me the other day and asked me if I'd ever considered getting together with one of our mutual friends. I told her no, because the guy is too 'intense'. Actually, what I meant...