The Wilful Sunflower

For some reason, I've had this song playing in my head for the past few weeks:

I don't have to worry trying to prove myself to You
You know before I start what's hidden in my heart
You can change me, rearrange me into somebody new
And best of all, You promised to see me through.

Yes, I am a throwback :P

Anyway... I find it interesting that this song is playing in my head. Years ago I would sing this song as a way to reassure myself, to comfort myself. But now I can sing it with the knowledge that this is really true -- I don't have to prove myself to God; I'm a work in progress but I'm His work in progress; and He will see me through.

I'm amazed I've come this far, actually. The changes come so slowly, they creep up on you before you realise it. One day you wake up and notice that you're different. You feel different, you think differently, you approach life, God and friendships differently. I'm more at peace, less insecure. Content and less driven or fearful. It's a really good place to be in and I didn't trust it at first; I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop, for the 'phase' to end. But it didn't. It hasn't. And, hopefully, it won't.

To tell you the truth, I'm a bit surprised this has happened after all the years of angst and railing at God for being so slow (and sometimes so silent). Life is interesting, isn't it?