Welcome to WilfulSunflower.com, my new home. Thanks to Bob and Jason, things have gotten sorted out pretty fast. I'm still fiddling with the look & other stuff, trying to make it perfect; meanwhile, blogging will resume as usual :) Mom...
I am starting to feel like I can't cope with life again. I woke up this morning and thought maybe I could try cutting the skin at my wrist just to see how far down I had to go before...
I have not had Internet access for FOUR DAYS! Streamyx (my ISP) sucks ass! Then why am I still with this ISP, you may ask. Because they're a bloody MONOPOLY, that's why! Now I'm on prepaid dial-up -- also under...
Sherman thinks I'm still single because I'm too intelligent, which is flattering, but hardly reassuring. "You know why it's so difficult for you to have a man? You're too intelligent, full stop. I've never met a guy who has a...
This week I've been rather lazy and didn't accomplish much of anything. I was telling Ben so when he replied, "No worries; it's not wrong to be lazy." It's not wrong to be lazy?!! When I was in secondary school,...
I still can't get over the fact that I'm now an adult and can relate to older adults on the same plane. I don't have to call them 'auntie' and 'uncle' all the time (unless they're really old... err, I...
Tonight I made a new friend. He was telling me about a blog he'd read where the writer had been praising God, and I blinked... there's been precious little of such things going on here lately. In fact, now that...
Blink and I are here to celebrate Mom's birthday, which falls on Thursday. In our family, birthdays have always been significant dates. When I was in primary school (ages 7-12), Mom used to organise small birthday parties for me. We'd...
I've often said that I don't see the point of earning big bucks if it means you have to work like crazy, spending nights & weekends in the office. Coz you'd have all that money, but no opportunity to enjoy...
I've just gotten back from a three-day family trip. Quite fun, actually. It's only when we're at home -- I mean in my parents' apartment -- that things become a little... uh... difficult. Like, there's more chance for Mom to...
I found myself crying throughout the singing during church Sunday service this morning... just felt so disconnected from everything around me. Everyone was joyfully singing praises and clapping hands and stuff, and I was standing there trying my best to...
I'm grateful for:Parents who are still together after 29 years. Mom, a great cook who prepares my favourite dishes when I visit. Dad, a responsible provider who's worked hard and never complained about the sacrifices he's had to make for...
Which is worse -- physical suicide, or moral suicide? My flight back got delayed and I was left stuck in the airport with this thought running around in my head... I've been teetering perilously close to the brink over the...
One weird thing about me is the urge to confess. I can't just go and sin and enjoy it; I always end up telling someone. Sometimes even before doing anything. Like yesterday. I suppose I want to be saved from...
You don't realise how different your values are till you have to explain them. Saving myself for the man I'll marry is not so bad. It's not unheard-of, although maybe a bit old-fashioned. But when it comes to eschewing porn...
I deleted an entire email account today, which I have never done before in my entire life. I have had email accounts die on me by virtue of free hosts going belly-up, and have had email accounts suspended because I...
I just tried to install Movable Type on my server to run one of my other blogs, and was singularly unsuccessful at it. I managed to get to the point where you run the program for the first time and...
We're not balancing, we're juggling -- that's one of the things the speaker said at the conference which really made sense to me. He said "balancing" implies too much of a static state, whereas we're constantly juggling between work, family,...
Bob is doing some technical magic behind the scenes so this blog might go offline for a day or two. Don't panic. I'll be back. You can take the blog away from the blogger but you can't take the blog...
Two of my favourite people recently got together: my beloved housemate Emmy, and my friend Sherman. Guess who was the matchmaker? *grin* Truthfully, I had no idea this would happen. In my usual way, I would talk to Emmy about...
I stepped into a bridal gallery for the first time today. And pretended I was getting married. No, no, I'm not that pathetic. Really! I was with Janelle, my best friend, whose wedding is in July next year. She needed...
When I read accounts like that of Chris Rose, I find myself thinking that I can't be sufferring from depression after all. I am not that bad. I still function more or less normally, although I also have bad days...
I feel blessed because I am surrounded by people who care deeply for me and are committed to walk alongside me through this part of the journey during this period of my life. "God hasn't left you to go through...
I am officially jobless from tomorrow onwards. It's the second time I have done this -- quit without something else lined up -- and it's scary, but this time I am more prepared and didn't make this decision on the...