Trapped
Yes yes. This blog is not dead. Neither am I. It's just that... suddenly my world has turned very grey. I don't know how it happened or why it has happened. I don't know how I got here, and I don't know how to get back.
Some of the thoughts running through my mind:
- Can I take a vacation from life?
- Lord, I can't do this anymore.
- I feel sub-human. I think I'm operating at 20% capacity.
- I want to CTRL+ALT+DEL.
- The walls are closing in on me and I can't keep them apart.
- Will I ever be 'okay' again?