Not about saying sorry?
Bob and I had a late-night yumchar (literally, 'drink tea') session yesterday. We were talking about confessing to God & repenting of the wrong things one has done.
You see, I have a hard time telling God I'm sorry when I know that I'm not sorry, I don't FEEL sorry, and half the time I'm already anticipating the next time I'm going to do the same thing all over again. In that sense, sometimes I feel that there is no point telling God I'm sorry, because I don't mean it.
As a result, I don't feel that I can talk to God or that He would want to listen to me. Hey, if somebody did me a great wrong and refused to apologise, I wouldn't want to talk to the fella either!
But Bob pointed out that to confess is to say, "Yes, I did that." He said it has nothing to do with being sorry or saying sorry. This kinda blew my mind.
"Saying 'sorry' is easy. Saying, 'Well, God, you know I did that and messed up' is much harder," Bob said. I was like, my goodness, that is so true!
Still, I can't quite believe that I don't need to be sorry in order to approach God. I always thought I had to be sorry coz I was asking for forgiveness. Imagine telling God, "Okay, God, this is what I did. I'm not sorry, but please forgive me anyway." Very weird, isn't it!