Sometimes you try so hard but it doesn't work. And the one time it doesn't work is the time somebody takes it personally. "I'm really disappointed in you as a friend." "I've always been there to help you when you...
There are many things I intend to do but never do. There are also, thankfully, some things I intend to do and take a very long time to do, but at least eventually they do get done -- even if...
Book sales always take place at the most inconvenient times. MPH had its stock clearance sale last weekend, and the Times warehouse sale will end tomorrow. Meanwhile, I'm not exactly rolling in dough since I only began work last month...
I nearly didn't go to the SIB church cell group on Friday night. I'd wanted to go coz they were starting the inductive Bible study on the Gospel of John. But that particular day I was dealing with several things:...
The downstairs bathroom light fused weeks ago. It's the only bathroom in the house with a water heater. We've been bathing by candlelight ever since. Not that we're so helpless we don't know how to change a light bulb, but...
It's 1:45am, and I'm sitting here eating chocolate coz of a conversation I've just had with BP. He started it -- he had to mention CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES! BP: "I usually get Chipsmores, but there's also a large tin...
Since I currently have NO concrete plans for the future -- zilch, nada, elek, kosong -- I can't help but remember Jesus's words, "Do not worry about tomorrow". I'm starting to realise exactly how radical those words are. Don't worry...
I bought comfort food yesterday -- a bottle of Pepsi and a cup of yoghurt. I figured I'd balance the extreme unhealthiness of the Pepsi with the healthiness of the yoghurt, and anyway, yoghurt is cheaper than chocolate. However, the...
I can't stand it when my friends put themselves down. Yes, not everybody is good in everything, and sometimes I too feel I won't be able to do this or figure that out, but stop saying you're hopeless, coz...
I was supposed to have dinner with Lady Snoflek on Thursday to celebrate her birthday -- albeit a day late -- and she cancelled on me!!! *sob* *sniff sniff* ...coz she'd just gotten her letter of acceptance from the Japanese...
I'm feeling so darned tired and it's only 9:25pm. For some reason my lower back has been aching for the past few days and this week I've had several bouts of mild diarrhoea... dunno what's happening. Went for the public...
4:30am and I wake up with this HORRIBLE backache, the kind where you breathe in a little too hard and your whole body freezes with the sudden stabbing pain. I'm waaaaaaay too young to have this kind of backache --...
Weddings seem to be a reunion event these days. Whenever one of the ol' college Christian Fellowship gang gets married, almost all of the rest will be there... taking the opportunity to catch up on what's been happening in each...
I slept on the parquet floor last nite coz Dad said to sleep on a "hard surface". I swear, the floor did wonders for my back! I'm sooooooo much better today, I can hardly believe it. The pain is much...
I don't feel like writing anything today. Been wrestling with several issues lately and feeling blue. So, lucky for me, I have some questions to answer... I got my first "real job" at 19. I was in university, had a...
Today I found out I'm an alto and not a soprano. After responding to an urgent SOS, I had an audition with the director of The Canticle Singers' latest production. Seriously, I always thought I was a soprano coz my...
Reality, Myth and Imagination. That was the title of the talk I attended last night at SIB church. I don't generally take very much notice of who is giving the talk (except to make sure that it's not some cult...
I can't believe it. I woke up at 3:30 this afternoon. I mean, yes, I slept at around 4am in the morning, but still--! Mind you, I'm currently sleeping on the upstairs landing coz I'm still sleeping on the floor,...
6:20am and I am eating chocolate. Comfort food. And yes, I should be sleeping. But I decided to work, so I should be working. Ever heard of 'procrastination'? I did get one piece of work done, so at least my...
Recently, one of the Christian US bloggers passed away. His blog wasn't one I used to frequent. I read about his death on another blog, then went to this guy's blog, and it was still there, looking as if he...
Had a sudden need to listen to classical music tonight. Weird. Despite having spent eight years of my youth taking piano lessons, I rarely listen to classical music. But for some reason, tonight it just seemed... right. No, necessary. And...
Nowadays I tell people I'm a freelance writer. Coz it seems like that's what I'm doing right now, and it's easier to explain than "Oh, I have two jobs, and I'm confused about my career..." :P Ever since I started...
In December last year, I went out on a few dates with a guy. Getting to know each other, trying to discover if we were compatible. After a month, he wanted to know what I thought. I felt we would...
I am soooooooooo zonked. Really knackered. Feel like I could sleep for a week. So, I'm going to sleep. Err, right after I finish this post. Yes, my name is Sunflower and I am a Blog Addict. But back to...
I woke up this morning at 3:30am. With the dreaded INSOMNIA. Couldn't go back to sleep. Bleh. So I busied myself transferring all my old comments over from Haloscan (a third-party service) to my current blog. Coz you see, this...
I visited Bangsar Lutheran Church (BLC) this morning with a friend. Yes, I didn't go to my own church, yes, this was the only time I've been to a church service in four weeks, and yes, apparently I still have...
Chinese culture teaches you nothing about grace. In fact, it teaches you the very opposite. This realisation burst upon me quite suddenly a few weeks ago. For us Chinese, it is very hard to grasp the concept of grace, simply...
I know I'm not supposed to believe in karma, coz karma takes God out of the picture and places the burden of everything on you. With karma there is no place for forgiveness, mercy, or grace; only raw justice --...
UPDATE: I suspected I've been losing readers and now I'm sure of it. Only five responses?!? For the past month I've sort of felt "chained" to the computer coz work has been so insane, and now I'm trying to get...
Warning: Depressing post ahead. Tonight I drove round and round my housing area before finally going home. Wrapped in morose thoughts, talking to God, at one point pulling over and turning off my car lights before shedding a few tears....
Tonight I was at the SIB church cell group meeting. We were asked, "How has knowing Jesus impacted you?" and my first thought was, "He's made my life a constant struggle!" Okay, so you know my state of mind isn't...