Flummoxed
After what I wrote two days ago, I was hoping this career thing wouldn't get any more complicated, but it has...
I'm an exco member of the Graduates' Christian Fellowship, an NGO that aims to encourage graduates to live out their faith in their respective places of work. GCF's admin staff (they only have one) is leaving, and on Sunday I was asked whether I want to take her place temporarily, till I find another job.
My main concern was that I'd be expected to sit in an office 9 to 5, which I KNOW would drive me crazy (especially after my experience in my short-lived previous job). But no, the GCF president said I could go in to the office when I need to, and work from home the rest of the time if I choose.
The flexibility would be a HUGE plus, and the income would also help... I actually feel embarrassed, having to rely on my parents for financial aid. At 27 going on 28, I should be GIVING them money, not taking money from them. Plus, they've just moved to Sabah and I bet they could use the money for other things right now. Bleh. Some days I feel like a 27-year-old failure just because of this money issue.
Anyway, I promised to think and pray about taking on the job. I'm befuddled coz when I resigned, I thought I would finally be teaching, since I'd stopped fighting God about it. So to have this job offer come along makes me wonder what on earth God is doing. Yes, it's supposed to be temporary, until I find something else. But still--!