Bah humbug!
I played Christmas songs on my office computer all day yesterday in an effort to get myself into the Christmas mood. It didn't work.
But I'm leading worship at my cell group's evangelistic Christmas party tomorrow and I NEED to be in the mood! To think I volunteered to lead worship. I thought it would be simple and quite straightforward. Tsk tsk. Pride goes before a fall, Sunflower!
Finally sat down and put together a list of songs this afternoon, then sent the list to my guitarist so that he'll be able to prepare, too. Coz you see, I don't want us to just sing a bunch of carols. It's easy to sing them without thinking twice, coz you hear them year in, year out, and the lyrics are so familiar. But to me it's important to mean what I'm singing and to realise that I truly am celebrating the birth of Jesus. As worship leader, I hope to get the whole group to do the same, too.
Anyway... Christmas appears to be interesting this year, as I'm going to be incredibly thick-skinned and will be joining two different cell groups -- neither of which is even under my church -- for their Christmas parties. Yay! More pressies! :P Actually I'm really not in the Christmas mood, but people keep on asking me what I'll be doing for Christmas and when I say, "Nothing," I get pity invites ;)
My office is also having a gift exchange thingy and a Christmas potluck lunch (I'm supposed to bring bread, but not ordinary bread. Uh... *scratches head*... where am I going to find extraordinary bread?!). We drew lots to determine who would buy presents for whom and I had a bit of a hard time figuring out what to get for my receipient coz I've only been working here for slightly over a month. I don't know any of my colleagues well enough to know what they'd truly like. So I got something extremely practical for that person.
I'm always quite blah about Christmas, I don't know why. It has never been particularly special for me, although I know it's meaningful from a religious point of view. This year I'm conscious of the year drawing to a close and it feels kinda like Christmas is in the way. Just let the year end already! 2005 has seemed to stretch forever. More of that in another post, perhaps.