The Wilful Sunflower

I was writing something else, but it will not come out right, and I think I'm developing a cold. *sniffle*

I ponteng-ed (played truant from) cell group meeting tonight and am just feeling out of things in general. The two possible changes I mentioned earlier are now confirmed and in the works but the time isn't ripe yet to talk about them... everything in my life is pending!

Mau cari boyfriend oso pending... (want to find boyfriend also pending!). You know, I went to Young Adults' Camp and while I was there, I just struck up a conversation with one of the campers. It ended with her offering to pray for me. I told her I want to be married (I don't see any point in pretending otherwise) so she petitioned God on my behalf. After that she told me, "I think God is saying to you, be patient!" Bleh.

I feel like I've been patient forever :P

Paradoxically (is there such a word?), I'm content to wait and yet at the same time, I wish God would hurry up. If you look at the big picture, it is best to wait coz there's no point rushing into a relationship just for the sake of having one, only to have things fall apart later. That's not the kind of relationship I want, anyway. I would still rather wait for the right person at the right time; I think the waiting will be worth it.

So if God says be patient, I WILL BE PATIENT IF IT KILLS ME!!!!

Now if you'll excuse me, I need to go to sleep coz I have the sniffles and a slight sore throat, and while those might not kill me, I still feel like I'm ONE STEP AWAY FROM DYING. Right, I'm melodramatic, so sue me :P