What you see is what you get
The guy emailed me for the first time today ;)
I'd thought he was not going to email, since it'd been so long since Mom told me about him. About three weeks ago she called and said his uncle had rung Dad just to tell him that he (the uncle) had gotten his nephew's age wrong. Turns out the guy is not as old as we originally thought he was! (But is still older than I am.)
Anyway, I went for dinner with some friends tonight and told them about this, err, "development". One of them asked, "Did you tell him about your blog?"
I haven't told him about my blog. I want to say it's because I want to know him a bit better before I hit him with it, but that doesn't make any sense because the blog is on the World Wide Web and I have strangers dropping by here every day. Besides, he could come across it any day too -- for all I know, he might already be reading it!
So I don't really know why I'm reluctant to tell him about my blog. Maybe I just don't want him to find out all about me from the website, coz that would mean that he'd know so much stuff about me whilst I still know next to zilch about him. It takes the fun away from the getting-to-know you process. Do you think that's true?
Also, for a while I've had a sort of worry that the blog might be, err, a minus point when it comes to starting a relationship. Like, everything is out here, you know, all my weirdness and faults and doubts and struggles. Sometimes I imagine people reading and shaking their heads, thinking, "Boy, is she messed up!" Or they might get spooked by the privacy issue and the thought that THEY might become a frequent topic of my writing here.
Tonight I asked my friend (a guy): "Do you think my blog chases guys away?"
He said something like, "Sunflower, just be yourself. If the blog chases guys away, that is good -- those are the guys who were not supposed to be with you in the first place!"
Good point :) I am, after all, a firm believer in just being who you are, coz if you try to perpetrate a masquerade you'll find you have to continue the charade indefinitely. Nobody can keep it up forever, and when the masks eventually drop, what will happen? Far better to be straight with each other from the beginning. What you see is what you get! haha.