Praying harder now
I've never really been one to have pets. I had two rabbits when I was in primary school, but they died an untimely death due to the neighbour's dogs who burrowed under the fence separating our gardens and tore apart the rabbit cage.
A few evenings ago, though, my boss and colleagues were talking about the quirks of a particular kitten and I caught myself feeling wistful, wondering if I should get a pet... something soft and furry to hold & love and welcome me home at night.
Boy, I need to get married... fast. *grin*
Janelle, my closest friend, once said that I have the strongest nesting instinct of anyone she knows. I badly want to settle down but it's just not happening. As I was telling another friend the other day, half the time I'm all serene and trusting God, and the other half I'm wondering why He's taking such a long time, scared that I might end up single forever.
He said — yes, it was a 'he' — something about us wanting to get it right, and therefore feeling tormented over the whole thing. I'm still wondering if we make marriage too complicated. But, as I concluded in that post, the complications are there for a reason. So what else is there to do except wait and go about life as usual?
I've started to feel a sense of urgency about this matter and have resolved to talk to God (or 'pray') about it every day... maybe I'll bore Him so much that He'll finally act in a visible manner ;) Before this, I'd just more or less left the whole issue in His hands, content to let Him do things in His own time according to His own plan.
Perhaps there is a time to hammer on the doors of Heaven and a time to just let God do His business. I'm not sure. Jesus told the story of the persistent widow, who kept on 'kacau'-ing (bothering) a judge so much that he decided to help her get justice in the end. This story was supposed to show Jesus' disciples "that they should always pray and not give up" (v.1). But the later verses (v.6-8) seem to indicate that this persistence has to do with praying for justice, and not simply any kind of general prayer.
Still, I guess more prayer can only be good... as one preacher said, the more you pray, the more you are changed, because no one can stand before God and remain unchanged. Call it a bonus or a 'positive side effect', if you will :) Here I come, God!!!