Adore Him
For two years now I've made it a practice to prayerfully think over my life at the end of the year, and, instead of making a New Year's Resolution, I make a commitment to God concerning some aspect of my life, habits or character that I particularly want to change. Last year my commitment was to let God build discipline in my life.
So for this entire year my keyword has been "discipline" and I've had lots of issues come up in relation to that; discipline, or the lack of it, does tend to affect every part of me, which in turn affects every part of my life. *sigh*
I've been wondering whether I ought to renew that commitment -- I'm not so sure that I'm done with that whole discipline thing yet! But something inside me says to move on, that I've made a good start on the discipline issue and that the work will continue even if it is no longer my "keyword for the year".
But what new commitment shall I make to God this year?
I think, perhaps more than anything else, I want to fall in love with God again. A book I was reading last week (can't remember which one, I tend to read several books around the same time) was talking about loving God. The phrase "adore Him" simply leapt off the page at me.
It made me think. Do I really adore God? Not just love (which is an overused and abused word anyway), but adore Him?
What do you think of when you read the word "adore"? I see the picture of a woman, seated with her arm propped upright on the table and her chin resting on her palm, gazing adoringly at the one she... well... adores. That degree of absorption, content to simply sit and gaze upon the lover's face -- the deep sense of peace and joy, the feeling of awe and humility that such a person exists in my world and is mine -- do I have that with God??
I don't. But I want to.
Besides, how can I hope to marry a man who is passionately in love with God, when I'm not passionately in love with God myself? That wouldn't be fair...