Heartbroken
Yesterday, I blogged about my thoughts and feelings concerning my church. It痴 no excuse that I thought no one from my church knew about this blog. It was wrong of me to do that, because if I have a concern about what the church leadership is doing/teaching, surely I should take it up with them in private.
To cut a long story short, when I called my pastor up today I found out that he (and others in the church leadership) had seen that post. Of course they were shocked, hurt, and angry. I feel terrible about the damage I致e done. The verse, 典he tongue has the power of life and death,� (Proverbs 18:21) comes to mind; the pen is worse, because a record is retained. With reference to this post, I had decided to move on, but I didn't want it to be this way...
I think of this blog as a place to write about my thoughts and feelings. Sure, it痴 a public blog, but the trick is not to post anything that I wouldn稚 want � say, my mother � to see (as this great article on writing for the Web states!). In my opinion, this is as far as self-censorship should go, because if I have to keep worrying about how people will react to what I知 writing, I would never be able write anything.
On the other hand, Jesus said, 的 tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken� (Matthew 12:36), so I DO have a responsibility to be careful my words will build up and not tear down. This is why I felt really terrible when I found out my pastor had been hurt by yesterday痴 post.
Proverbs says, 展hen words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise� (10:19). Obviously I still need a great deal of wisdom.